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secrets
(Friday, August 31, 2007-)
+5:07 PM]*
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you were the person i trusted the most
but now i noe
u are not trust worthy too...
frm now on i will trust no one.
i will shed no tear for u anymore
not for u not for anyone anymore...
i tried to find the card
but i couldnt even get sight of it
probably god wanna tell me thr is no affinity between us
rmb the time when we were at ahs
i went to the canteen & u came to find me but couldnt
i pruposely walk the other way
it was jus a test & we rly dint meet
frm the top i could see if anyone walk to the canteen
but i dint see u
maybe we are rly not fated.
but dun worry
i always rmb everytime dat i had spent wif u
& every word u told me
every promise i pormised me
i shall not forget & will not
guess wad
i am writing dis thing wif tears washing my face
dis is the 8th day frm we hav break
i hav been crying everyday when i came back hme
& dis will be the last day
i swear
the story ends like this;
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+4:33 PM]*
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i am so vexed...
i dunno wad to do now...
i rly dunno wad i do den is rite
i am goin to break down
why do she hav to give it to yn's own self torturing...
she is sick
she is sick in her mind
she is forcing u into a toxic relationship
i wanted to wash my hands frm dis things but...
it jus got me more hurt
was it rite to testify?
was it true dat admit you are guilty?
i am very confused...
seriously.. how impt am i to u?
not as impt as yn rite?
i can see...
u chose to hurt me & not her...
i surrender
i hav not choice but to give up the game...
i m jus not the expert in dis relationship
she is
she noe u too well
& noe how to control u...
face it
she is yr everything
'i love you... & it is more than i imagined'
i doubt so
the story ends like this;
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(Saturday, August 25, 2007-)
+8:23 AM]*
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yesterday was a fun day for me
although we kept walking & my calf hurt like hell
especially at the library and playgrnd
i threw away a card
a card
i wanted to give u but in the end dint
the story ends like this;
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(Wednesday, August 22, 2007-)
+6:26 PM]*
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help god!!!!!
i tried to reply as though i no longer care
but i....
i dun understand why u ask me if i wan u to go
i fi say no.
u wil stil go rite?
it has nth to do wif me
u wanna go jiu go ma...
does my decision even affect you?
i dint wanna reply de
but i stil could not control myself...
in the end
u still gave me such a reply...
wad does it mean?
telling me u love me but aft dat giving me such reply?
i dun get it
the story ends like this;
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(Tuesday, August 21, 2007-)
+7:10 PM]*
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it hurts badly...
why things mus happen twice
i guess compared to yn i was nth ba...
i am jus like a life buoy
save u whenever u NEED me
i hate it
why am i always like nth when compared to her
i can nv be like before
i can no longer act like i am happy
i cannot content me feelings
i almost cry in class
almost
but dun worry i am not like yn
one hu doesnt care ab herslef
i only noe dis
如果你自己不自爱，没有人会爱你的。
you may tink dis is rubbish dis is crap
but dis is my way of life
i noe i can nv replace her in yr heart
nor hav ii ever been impt to u
but i jus wanna tell u
i rly do love u
if u tink break up u wil be happier
go ahead
i respect yr decision
the story ends like this;
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(Tuesday, August 14, 2007-)
+11:37 AM]*
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thr hav been lots of probs for the past 3 days
why does she always hav to create prob
it made me almost wanted to break wif her so to break free of all probs
but i guess i am a selfish person
i dint noe dat she had always put my feelings above her
i always tot it was the other way round
maybe i rly dint tot of her feelings
all i had always replied her is i dunno
i guess dis was the most
i tot not interferring wif her decision was a right thing to do
but i guess wad she needs is an assured ans frm me
it is not dat we are drifting apart
i expressed myself wrongly
is dat
the nearer i get the more i feel dat i dun understand u
i tink dat is wad u tink so...
Unfathomable is the word
hmm...
i tink we rly need time
n pls dun hurt yrself no matter wad.
the story ends like this;
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(Saturday, August 4, 2007-)
+11:17 AM]*
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althoug the story goes on but same thing occurs.
is this how god wan the story to flow?
i guess all i can is to be a nice person & accept wad it has to be
no objections
no resistance
even if i do
god will not allow me so
if i do
both parties will be hurt
i wan no one to be hurt
how i wish i am god
can do many things at once
or even decide the ending of everything
living is not a blessing
it is a sin
it is a way to atone sins.
it sux
the story ends like this;
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